Its the brain chemicals man, we are all robots, but we have control of our personal program, the stuff we can do with our own two hands. focus on the two hands, not on what people say, or think, or what's "supposed to be" focus on the obsessions, I'm not talking about the girl kind of obsession, I mean the things that you love doing, have always loved doing, the shit that really makes you happy man. Just play a video game, do something you can do, don't wait for other people because they'll never be there. Don't let the cycling get to you

thanks man